If we were having coffee, I’d tell you I’m sad lately. I’m not usually one to start off on a low note, but the world has been tough. I’d thank you in advance for being a good listener. Sometimes it’s nice to just get it all out.
Orlando is my home. You all know that by now…and it’s been a month. Today has been one month since it happened. I don’t need to say it, because you know. I don’t want to sound selfish about my city but it feels, to me, as if people are beginning to forget. Not right here, but elsewhere. The tragedy in Louisiana. Minnesota. Texas. And that’s only in the U.S. Those are important too, for more reasons I won’t go into today. I just need to say: I’ll never forget. And my heart is still broken.
On Friday, Orlando lost another huge part of it’s soul. A friend of mine – a friend to most people in Orlando – was killed in an accident during a vacation with friends to the Grand Canyon. Colleen Burns touched so many lives in this city and was truly – to me – the light of this town. A blogger friend, former neighbor and just all around rad girl. Gone too soon. We’ll all keep dancing, Colleen. And our lives are better for having you in it. [Read Kaskade’s tribute here; video here; People story here]
^the last photo taken on her instagram
Don’t forget to show everyone some love and remind them how important they are.
I take a deep breath for a moment and I’ll give you a hug. I am not even that much of a hugger, but for some reason, I need to. You let me, and you wipe away some of my tears. Gosh, I’m so emo today.
But there are good things too. I don’t let myself dwell in that negative for too long. I’m trying to be real and honest, which is ok. Letting my guard down is a good thing, I tell myself.
The good things are my wonderful friends. The nights spent laughing. Supporting the things we love, like the NOH8 photoshoot on Friday. Even though my friend and I received a dirty look from a random stranger, we stood proud to support what we believe in. Equality. Not hate. Only love.
I’m grateful for living what I love. I have beautiful people around me. I support myself. I’m healthy. I have fun things ahead. Those are the good parts. Going to local businesses and shopping small. Just sitting down to catch up on the week with a friend. All of it matters. All of it counts.
Do you need more coffee? I need more coffee. It’s only Tuesday. But this week will be a good one, I believe. Maybe I’ll go for a walk or two. Perhaps I’ll read a book, finally. I’ll even think about going to a movie or something. The options are endless. I hate planning my week, but I know it’ll be a good one.
Before we know it, it’s time to go. Thank you for hanging out. I appreciate you for letting me blurt out all my feelings.
Next time, the coffee’s on me.